It was in no way my intention to start my journal with such an emotional post, but I need to just share my thoughts without having to physically speak about it.

I was in my room, as per usual, at around 11pm when my friend, Josh, tweeted about an “incident” that had happened at Ariana Grande’s concert in Manchester. I checked it out and saw Twitter had made a moment with different tweets, early news reports and panicked fans tweeting out videos of what was happening. At first, it was just rumoured that a giant helium balloon had burst following the finale of Grande’s set, but when I saw a news reporter say he could see some fans covered in blood along with hundreds of emergency services rushing to the scene following the reports of an explosion.

I ran downstairs and put BBC News on to seeĀ BREAKING across the screen and news reporters live at the scene. It was still really early on and nobody knew what was going on. Many were hoping and praying it was an electrical explosion because God help if it was what any of us feared it would be.

As a massive music supporter, I live and breathe the life of being a fan. I support a number of artists passionately. I’ve made friends around the globe; many whom I have met in person, been supportive of every project they do and of course, attended the concerts. For me, my entire year is a countdown to the next concert I attend. I love to plan the whole day of the event. When I’ll meet friends, seeing what fan projects are taking place, what I’ll wear, seeing whether or not I’ll be staying at a hotel and sorting things out for there, too. I know the feeling of that adrenaline high when the artist has left the stage and though it’s a bit sad the show is over, you’re still feeling that rush running through your entire body and the energy is oh so high in the venue. Your mind is buzzing with excitement as you try and find your way outside to meet with other people and embark on your journey from the concert. I’ve often heard funny noises leaving that kind of environment and being a jumpy and anxious person, I always assume the worst, but so far every unusual noise I’ve experience has proven to be nothing but equipment. I cannot fathom the kinds of vibes and thoughts of the people in Manchester Arena that night when they realised it was a dangerous situation and they had to get out as soon as possible. Continue reading